Saturday, March 11, 2006 | 8:18 AM

Little rainbow that lit up my day.

Dropping econs.

After all, rainbows dont appear unless there is rain.

It was a pretty surreal moment. At first, the sentence which struck me the hardest was

"You are tired already."

And how true indeed. I am tired of losing my battles with the sleep demon in LTs. And having the damn bad luck and in some way, audacity to just nod off during tutorials. Sick of not being able to ask the questions which I will ask had I been able to pay attention with regards to a deeper content, instead of thinking of asking stupid questions like, "What did the teacher said just now ah? " I am tired.

But despite all the fatigue, I was actually tempted by the promise of jumping 2 grades for Econs to want to continue with it. Apparently, that is kinda the norm for most subs la. But still.. I recall that I approached Mr Haniss with Kelv who promptly dropped the sub with 2 days afetr the discussion. He was sure of what he wanted. Yet I clung on, in hopes of surviving till block tests. Hmm... So despite all the sudden loss of control over my tear ducts during the math tutorial and everything, life brightened after a while and now, I am kinda in this happy mode.

But.. Like what Ali said, which Dz agreed (though I think it applies more for him than me) he didnt want to drop econs because I think, it was coz he thought he wld be letting Mr Haniss down.. I still feel kinda bad la. I nspite of all those "Wah, left 14 ah.. Shiok man!" I think the phrase which reflects his true sentiments would be the one he said to Doreen, "Thank you for not giving up on Econs. " Sigh.

A crazy thought. How do lecturers feel when they see this student falling asleep in front of them? From my side (the particiapnt) of the match against the sleep demon, it is a damn shitty and horrible feeling. I wonder if they see floating phantoms attacking the students above their heads? Or maybe phantom student v.s demon with swords and sabres drawn, hacking at each other? Or maybe like some texan shoot out? Maybe they are too busy to notice... Oh well..

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