Wednesday, November 30, 2005 | 6:23 PM

I am on a mental high now, mood leftover from last night's Mrs Ho's farewell party. I am having this urge to want to record every single thing down but I think better not, in case I go on another emotional roller coaster ride again.

But let's start with what happened after yesterday's blog entry. I called Dor and found out, to my horror, that she will not be staying for the farewell. Hmm, shall not go into what the conversation entailed but, it wasnt a pleasant one for me. In summary, her reasons for doing what she did and her reasoning just told me one thing, she didnt feel that it was a rep's responsibility. Ok, since we have always been having differing views anyway, I guess I will leave it at that.

I was actually sufficiently disturbed to begin to feel like giving up. I have learnt that s6aye is a class who would unites at their convenience. It is painful to keep encountering scenarios where it is easier to count who turned up than who didn't. If one can walk away from one's responibility as a classmate without feeling guilt, then I can say that that is irresponible. I felt as if the whole class was abandoning the whole idea and everything. Gah. Don't want to talk about it anymore. I feel like shouting at someone.

Anyway, I called Ali and updated her on the situation. To her credit, she maintained that she would be going and staying. I truly felt a lot better after that call. A mixture of relief, (that I wouldnt be the only one there doing all the stuff, watching the farewell), grattitude(that she offered the support I had very much needed then), and thank goodness, renewed energy.

So I went down to school and met Mervyn on the way. He was with Vicknan. I didnt know they are still performing! Oops, gave wrong info.. And.. that Genial is performing too! That I absoulutely have no idea in the first place at all! So we began compiling the stuff we have at th canteen and such.. Ok, credits given to those that came(or happened to be in school and popped by) : Alicia, Doreen, Belinda, Peck Hor, Yu Xian, Zirong, Genial, Jin Zheng, Mervyn, David. At least they appeared and helped in one way. Thanks ppl. (Hmm, not that they will see this but ya.)

Then we remembered that we need to punch holes in the paper! Thus began a mad search for a hole puncher. And along the way, I spotted Bel and Zr whom I thought were searching for that missing piece of office stationery. But it turned out that they were going to watch the Mrs Ho who has entered the school already. Anyway, borrowed hole puncher from Amos, yep, that receptionist in the GO. Dashed back and moved stuff to hall cox Zr and Bel were like joking that we got to move up cox Mrs Ho may be coming by the canteen area and that given that she cries for 2 mins per station, we still have time to move up to the hall. So anyway we managed to finish the stuff, just in time for the performances.

Let's see. There were quite a couple of distinguished guests and everything. The performance picked up and it was really fun and crazy hanging out with Ali, Bel and Zr. Bel and Zr, the two of them were lightstick crazy!! They were grabbing the sticks of other vacant chairs, and cracking them. But NY got cheapo sticks!! Like out of Bel's 5 or more, only one lit up! Bwahaha, there was this hilarious scene where a NY rather senior teacher actually asked us to pass her the sticks from the row before us. Then we saw.. a chain made out of loops of sticks on a chair beside her. That was a hilarious sight, it just cracked me up.

I really felt thankful that there were Ali and Bel with me last night, that their company were really all I could have asked for. Bel was really crazy, Ali was the calmest among the 3 of us. (Zr left after a while) We were all anticipating Genial's performance!! There were other performances by eg. Mervyn's crew (Mrs Chan later told me that she had never appreciated his talent until now. I felt happy for Merv and gang. Cool! =) ). S9D had a skit, I thought the duet for "Forever Love" was pretty ok, thanks to the singers' voice. And one of the highlight, 3 teachers performed songs which I think would be in Mrs Ho's generation, and in chinese. Man! The female teach in the red qi pao was good!!!! She hit the notes effortlessly.. Wah! Hot hot hot!!
Speaking of hot, so is Ms Tay! Oh man! She was with the English department playing chinese drums, those for lion dances one!! Oh goodness! She was dressed in white collar, blouse, with jeans. HOT!!! Ok, I shld stop. But really!!! =P Haha~

Whoops! Gotta go school and return Amos his hole puncher and do stockcheck for drum! Gotta run!! Will update on what happen when I rmb.

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Tuesday, November 29, 2005 | 8:55 PM

Popped in here for a little summary of my beautiful day before going off to prepare for Mrs Ho's farewell, and what else? To see even more beauty of life of course!

Ok, I am not exactly in the happiest and most enthusiaistic mood now. And I am not exactly sure if there is anyone I can blame it on. Or that I want to blame it on anybody.

Sigh, so far, I think more than 5 ppl whom I considered as the regular attendees of class functions have told me that they will not be going today, and while this doesnt affect my mood for the farewell, I was more disturbed about their inattendance with regards to the the teachs' stuff. I just hope I can survive today with minimal scratches, bruises and everything, and hopefully, won't inflict damage onto anyone. ( I know I will exceed the vulgarities limit.)

Bah. I just keep getting this sense of worry. It is really unsettling. Maybe it will die down later, but right now, all can think of are images of .. those empty barren marshes with just the cold brittle wind whipping across the field. I think it is pretty easy to infer what the image says right?

Oh well, gotta dash. Will update on today's stuff sometime soon.

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| 3:47 AM

3 posts in a day. Wow. I am actually still working up the guts to do something to my friendster blog. Hmm, this sounds wierd. But actually, I am not sure if I want to close off that blog. Maybe I will pop back to write sometimes. The colour palette for the fonts are so much prettier. *pouts*

Hmm, tmr is Mrs Ho's farewell party and I stillllll cant contact the few missing members of my class. Gotta be in sch by 3 to finish up the books, and I really dont know how and when can we find the teachs to give them their stuff. No one knows the schedule and everything, I can predict the mess tmr. Probably I will be like fielding questions on where to go, what to do, and when can we leave or smthg I guess. These are the questions I would have asked =) Mrs Chan hasnt replied me on the attire for tmr. Ok, well, I have effectively blocked my brain from extrapolating what will happen tmr, so I guess it is gona be a suspense~~~ *faux excitement and aniticipation* Sigh. I think I really oughta get a head start on what to write soon.

Maybe as soon as I figure out what the hell to do with my friendster blog. Bah.

My brother just went off to his graduation dinner. 7pm to 12am ?!!? And after O levels too!! Can you believe it ?! *Intones in old man's voice* "Xiang3 dang1 nian2 ah, I had my grad ball b4 the Os, and it was in the noon you know?! These youngsters nowadays ah, so lucky.. " *rambles off*

Fine! It is all over anyway. Should stop nagging about all these stuff. That stubborn brother of mine is running a fever and still insists on going. He better get his ass home by midnight, like Cinderella. In case I forget like the last time when I bolted the door and poor Dad had to call home and get Mum to open the door. Oops.

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| 2:33 AM

As you can see, this is a giant step for me on the path of technology.

I am moving my blog here.

Ok, if you are reading this, I think I should have moved my blog here already. I am having this wierd feeling of being liberated. Which probably means that now that my "muzzle" is off, I am gona get into trouble with some libel laws real soon, if this stupid mood doesnt lift soon. =P

Hmm, I think I have been threading this line of whether to acknowledge that there are readers of my blog for some time. Duh, I know that there are, it is just that I dislike feeling the compulsion of showing consideration to other people's opinions when I am writing. Yes, it is a compulsion, which means it is a freaking darn inherent property in me, which had made me extremely tolerant (in my case at least) to ppl who may have different mentalities from me. While that had been one of the key factors in me not throwing a temper when it comes to work issues, and has definitely helped in maintaining the required balanced stance in GP essays, it is kind of a torture and a pain in the ass when one wants to blog.

Wow! I do feel liberated man! Look at me! Vulgarities freedom~Woohoo!~

Ok, I hope this mood wears off soon, I sound like I am ready to haul someone up for some verbal or rather, written abuse. Down mk.

I want to do some kind of reflection thingy on my past experiences of having a blog now.

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| 2:28 AM

testing one.. testing two.. testing one, two, three...

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