Thursday, February 23, 2006 | 5:42 AM

Dont we wish that somethings would happen so that we can be absolved of any responsibility for doing something which we very much want to do, but for some reasons, didnt do it?

The situation that sparked off these thoughts, was that brother dear wants to go to poly instead of remaining at his jc. Yet after thinking through and everything, he chose to put SA as his first choice, and NYP the second. He mentioned recently, that he wish somehow, something would happen, and he would get posted to NYP automatically. Maybe like a huge, sudden influx of 6 pointers going to SA pr smthg ba. Which led to me asking Jas abt it, and she made a very good observation about why we want such things to happen.

In my brother's case, it was something like a deliberation of choosing btween what he likes doing and the conventional path. For me, I liken it to, choosing which subject to drop, which is linked somewhat to which faculty to go to in the uni.. etc. And till now, I am still holding out onto my options, hoping somehow, by heaven's intervention, or a twist of fate, that I dont have to make such a decision by myself.

And in the meantime, for both me and my brother, I think the only thing we can do is to get more information, so as to make.. in the event that we had no options but to make our choice, our choices would be, in the very least, an informed one.

Which leads to my mum. She is obviously fretting about my brother. And it is horrid seeing her go through this while being not much of a help to do something to allay her concerns. Wat's is the point of giving token advice? Token encouragement maybe.. But I think the greatest extent one can go to, as a friend or as a sibling, I can only highlight certain points, bring his attention to certain things so that he can best make a decision, or so that I myself can make a decision.

But the thing about information, in this very imperfect knowledge of ours, we dont know how important the implications some of these info holds. It is something like econs, measuring the CPI. You dont know what weights to give to certain things. Just like me not knowing how much importance to attach to certain advice given, because, some of the info given may be biased against something in the first place. For eg, listening to the arguments Mr Haniss and Mrs Chan give for not dropping, and dropping a subject respectively. It is always interesting to look at all these info which are given to you, and observe, how some of the info given to you makes an impact on you. Mrs Chan, Mr Kwek, alomost of the teachers, say, it doesnt matter which degree, or faculty you go into, you should get into the university.

I should get off my butt and start doing at least 10 qns of trapezium rule so Mrs Wong wont kick my butt tmr.

I so want to be absolved of the responsibilty of what I said and (did not) do.

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