Sunday, December 18, 2005 | 10:05 PM

For a couple of days, I have been thinking about a couple of issues and interestingly enough, did not feel like posting them on the net. Not that I can anyway. But now that I can, I feel a certain reluctance to call those thoughts up to the surface again. In fact, I have this general feeling of not wanting to do so to expose my thoughts for further potential messing up.

I have just relearnt that I were and still am an easily impressionable person. At this point in time, I am disliking it. I always make snap judgements and extreme remarks based on the limited amount of information I have. To me, it is something like, recording down my exaggerated thoughts at the moment. I usually revise my thoughts now and then because new info will trickle in. And because for me, I switch off reflecting and thinking when I am generallyin the pressence of people, I don't get to think about stuff until I am at home. This usually means that I will reach home, think about the day's happenings, and then realised thst I should have or not said something. Right now, this sucks. Gah.

Maybe I just cant handle all those bombardment from my outer and inner voices at the same time, ok? To me inflection and reflection should be done alone. This is why I always treasure my alone time. I need to recharge after like 2 or 3 bursts of social activity. And I usualy enjoy the time I have and the peace and quiet I get when I blog. Coz it is only then can I think about some of the stuff which I thought revealed more info about things. However, a downside to this. Sometimes I get caught up and carried away by my thoughts and then I will be unable to differentiate if I am just overreacting or too sensitive or that I got it right. Gah. Tunnel vision isnt just for the other species too.

My rather poor memory doesnt help either. I was recalling what Choon gave us last Xmas with yj n jas some time ago, and we came up with diff stuff. And what we thought happened when we bumped into some old school mates. So I make bad calls when I fail to remember certain events etc. Sigh, my bad.

In essence, this may also be seen as rectifying something after it has happened. Which means, it is too late. Which probably is a reason why people usually learn their lessons in hindsight. For me, especially so. I react and interact by instinct and usually, a little too fast to consider the possible implications of my speech and actions. See? This is yet another entry in hindsight. Gah.

Blogging frenzy dying off now. Think I have written myself out of it.

Anyway, on an unrelated note. Whee!! Happy right now cox Auntie Shirley let me borrow books from the library!! In return as a favour for buying Burnout 3 X-box so that I can now play 2 out of his ever growing collection of games, I am borrowing 2 Harry Potter books for my bro! And for me? Wahaha, I found the paperback for John Grisham's King of Torts! No more reading from the com! And yay, Linda Howard's new bk! *reading heaven* ~~

This however means that, with the restoration of my house com and the introduction of 4 new reading materials, it appears that I may never get to finish my homework in time. So much for doing homework at the end of hols so as to rmb them better. Hah. who am I fooling? I figured I will not finish them on time already! It is now just a matter of finishing hiw much on time that's all. Whee! The heady excitement of rushing holiday assignments!!!

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