Friday, April 06, 2007 | 5:45 AM

Just bear with me.

mk is for.. mk

but,

km is for KaMe!!

Okay, I am done. I am sure those who have been witness to my new acts of craziness or mental unstabilty should know what I am talking about. And those who don't, are wisely better off not knowing.

But oh my goodness, he is really cute! And he dances so well, and has a great voice =D Oh, and he looks hot in specs! He is the one main reason why I am currently obsessed with male hairstyles and fashion. Kame, Kame, Kame~

*km smacks mk on the head*

Er-hem. And now for a proper update on what I have been up to for the past few weeks. Basically, I finally submitted my applications for the universities, got pissed off by my customers, met up with Bee for coffee, got pissed off by more customers,dropped by the NY mural painting event, attended an outing with around 13 05s6ayers, became a mis-adventurer, and met up with the majority of the Andss gang today. =)

This sudden burst of social activity made me realise a couple of things about myself.

All along I had this nagging thought at the back of mind that there is a mk somewhere inside me who is very much comfortable with her own company. I have learnt to enjoy taking lone bus rides, to study on my own, to visit libraries by myself. It is like having a lot of freedom to just go ahead and do whatever you like, without having to take anyone else into consideration. I can go get a cup of coffee on the spur if I want to, or just wander into an arcade after work to play Time Crisis, or lop off to the library. Of course this has a lot to do with the ease of travelling to these places and that these activities are sometimes meant to be accomplished by oneself, but on top of that, I suppose there is this certain romanticsm to doing these activities all alone.

This is maybe why, I am very much of a passive socialite. You know, usually, you have to initiate something like a meet up. It is only with certain people that I become the active one. But really, I am not very cut out for this kind of thing. And I know my 9am - 8pm job is not helping either.

And yet when I am around friends, I behave rather differently. Or in the very least, the thoughts inside my head are kinda different. I suppose spending time with other people, and more importantly, people whom I know, and know me as well, is a welcome deviation from spending time with me myself.

These people bring out different parts of me by interaction and I am thankful to know that there are some many different sides of me still existing. I am quite afraid to find out that these sides of me would die upon the graduation from NY.

But actually, many a times, I dont think you lose that camaderie or that ease of banter with your friends, even if you grow up and drift away. You see people meeting up and just carrying on from where they left off in their school years, laughing and chatting, just like yesterday. But I think one to have a certain amount of faith, in that friendship, to be able continue or re-develop the friendship with such ease. And I do want to have this faith in the friendships that I have cultivated.

I think I have a lot to be thankful for this lifetime. I have met a lot of different people, whose character and actions have influenced and shaped me. Whose existence has led to me having a better glimpse of who I am.

Thank you for being my friend.

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