Sunday, July 30, 2006 | 1:34 AM

Whoops, it has indeed been some time since I have updated, hadnt I?
Anyway, a hello to everyone and yup, thank you to those who had very sweetly sent their wishes and celebrations my way thoughout the course of Friday and Saturday XD They are very much appreciated and treasured!! Thank you thank you =)

Well, I have been determined to spend more time with at home even with the start of school because I discovered that being at home and helping my parents with their chores and simply doing a little chitchat with them now and then feels me with a peace and serenity which I very much like. Yeah, can you believe that sweeping the floor and doing the dishes feel me with a sense of contentment and peace? Goodness, the next time I get pissed off at AMK library maybe I oughta whip out an extendable broom and vigorously sweep the floor till I feel better. Right. It is more likely that I will smack it on some brat's butt instead.

Oh, and no thanks (actually a million thanks) to Leen that now I am addicted and very much infatuated with a male lead character from a Taiwanese idol drama serial, It Started With A Kiss. And the hot, adorably boyish and cheeky and animated and smart and intelligent and tall (have I mentioned hot already?) guy is Joe Cheng (Zheng Yuan Chang). Haha. You can gush over your Mike He and I shall gush over mine =P

But actually, apart from going gaga over him, I am also very much inspired by his character's intelligence and his decision to seek out his own path by choosing to step out into the society and work to support himself through university.

Yup, so basically, instead of just spending time fantasizing about him, I actually feel motivated to study hard to be as smart as I can be (of course it is impossible to be as smart AS him, he has an IQ of 200) and to actually take action in plotting out my own life direction. Freaky eh, what infatuation can do? I am just kidding btw about the infatuation la! Not what it has done!

And this is why now I dont have time to properly ogle at him anymore, because whenever I look or think about him, my mind will flit to the scenes where he was working and him asking his elders about their own dreams and life decisions, and I become determined to not lose to him in being so hardworking about planning for my own future.

Hmm, do I sound obssessed? *peers at earlier contents* Anyway, I am now changing my obssession about drama serials into something that will have a more positive impact on my life instead of cultivating an unhealthy interest and addiction to Youtube and the PC. Yup =) Finally, I have discovered the positive, motivating wonders of idol drama serials that can counteract the negative effects of dismal results!!

And yes, I really cant paraphrase the words "postive effects" any longer.

Haha, okay, I believe I exaggerated a little about all those crazy things above but anyway, as long as I believe in them right?

By the way, I believe there are still photos which I have not uploaded and stuff but yup, guess I wont be able to spent so much time online anymore. What with my bro going through the horrors of all horrors: PW, and all these revision and homework stuff, and 5566's drama serial at 7pm (I hear snorts and puking already) but anyway, take heart that if you see me online (which isnt that frequent anyway) I will be motivating myself to study hard yeah?

Okay, I got to go kick some organic chemistry ass now! To all out there, have fun! =)

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Thursday, July 13, 2006 | 1:06 AM

People have different ways to deal with major emotion upheaval. Some cut their hair, some began to have an obsession about cleaning stuff, some stuff themselves with food, some mope around, some make drastic changes in other areas of their life and so on.

I suppose getting back mid year results like mine warrants some major emotion upheaval the size of a hurricane. But wierdly enough, I am not feeling like major depression or something. No, this doesnt mean I am not taking my grades seriously (and my chem really does suck). It is just a "ok, I-got-it-kind-of-thing". And when things come to that, it basically means that I probably deserved those grades. So this would mean taking the grades like a man, (err...) and work on getting my act right.

So I guess this is the time to tie those bandanas around your head, put on some inspiring music and put on this determined expression on your face and get your ass moving.

Right.

I think I shall just quietly get my work done and go under the radar for a while. But though I am not deserving of the right to be upset about my results (seeing that I deserved them, well, some of them actually), I can still join in the fun in making some changes in my life to mark yet another exam in my life, cant I?

So lets see, I got my hair cut (before I got the results), I binged on food (this occurs all the time, with or without getting the results) and I changed my layout! Whee!

I am not not taking my results seriously btw. It is just that I am seeing the greater goal and there is no time to waste indulging in those guilt and regret post-getting-back-of-results. Wont feel better anyway ma. So it is back to the books for me now I guess.

And so life goes on again.

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Thursday, July 06, 2006 | 5:34 AM

I had a lot in my head to today. And I really want to write them out to flush them out of my mind because I am loving the peace and quiet the mid years had offered in relation to my everyday people interaction, and I have no wish to ruin it just before such heavenly delight is snatched away by the re-opening of the school.

But I am really tired right now, (man, shopping is heart-breaking when you have no cash, and no energy) so I shall just drop off some pictures which can be interpreted to be representation of my emotions in any bloody way you like.

Wow, my very own inkblot test! Whee!

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