Saturday, January 14, 2006 | 5:02 AM

After Chingay practice today, went out for lunch with Bee. The actual lunch lasted about 1 hr I think and we spent around 4 hrs (+ eating time) talking.

To sum it up, I learnt a lot more about her, now I am glad that we have the same wavelength regarding quite a lot of stuff. I get to do quite abit of extension, elaboration and shaping of my concept of what I term "the outsourcing of friendship" today. From my perspective, it can answer and simplify some of the interpeople relations I think I have.

As what dz said on his blog, how many people can find their soulmate in this one lifetime of theirs? And I interpret soulmate as someone whose every aspect of themselves and their lives (eg. character, living habits, attitude towards family) fits in or is a perfect match of yours. I would say a soulmate is what we always call the other half of a person. Even very very good friends are unable to fulfil that role usually. This is why I think we are able to have different friends. And why we behave differently towards two friends of equal closeness with you. It could be because, in different friends, you find different parts of youself.

Despite that outsourcing is theoretically a one sided process, and friendship being supposedly two sided, if we limit it to an indivdual's point of view, the forming of friendship with another person is one sided. (Think along the lines of econs, when we dicuss wage diferentials, if we compare dd factors, we keep ss constant.) So we assume first that each and every individual whom you make friends with reciprocate your friendship with regards to the nature of the friendship with equal, for lack of more appropriate words ), intensity and quality.

I think it would be easier to illustrate this using life's eg.s For example, there are certain friends that you specifically go to for advice or help. And that can be divided into sub grps in terms of studies, interpeople relations etc. There are friends you tend to talk crap to and joke with. Maybe these people may be more serious when talking to their other friends, but when he/she is talking to you, that joking side of him/her comes out. There are people you know you cant talk about life and death about etc. So what the whole thing essentially is is that, we behave differently towards people because of the different types of friendship we have, which is based on us wanting certain form of emotional connection with another person, which is ultimately based on their daily behavior. In this sense, it is as if, in Friend A, I find someone who I can joke with. In Person B, I see a study partner. Of corse, due to imperfect knowledge, you usually don't know the whole of the person's character due to the outsourcing taking place.

So how does this fit into what I as talking to Bee about? It is just that by doing so, we exclude some people from some parts of our lives. And this would result in one not being able to totally understand another. And this is a cycle. Because of the different interests people have, they tend keep people not sharing the same interests away from that part of their lives.

I think this entry's concept has not been fully developed. And certainly, this idea is flawed. Much as I think I should, I duno, think thru more clearly b4 wrting this, (but i m scared i will forget mar..), I think I most prob will leave it like this. Lazy mk.

And hark! I hear the curve sketching tut calling. Till next time.

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